Thursday, February 12, 2009

Fear and Creativity

I'm afraid of a lot of things. Mostly I'm afraid of not being enough. I'm afraid my ideas are dumb, and if people hear them they'll think I'm dumb. I'm afraid of what people I admire think of me. I'm afraid of sharing my opinions. I'm afraid of not realizing my potential and of falling short. These things terrify me, and it's hard to create when you feel so scared.

It's taking time, and I feel a lot more comfortable creating here than I did a year ago when I first started, but I'm still so easily intimidated. I'm petrified that I'm not doing enough, that I am not enough. It takes a lot to step out of my fears and sort out the truth of my situation from my perception of it.

It's taking time, but I'm finding hints of freedom.

5 comments:

Danielle said...

You are not alone. I feel the exact same way all the time.

All I can say is - you are awesome. And Urban thinks so too, even if you don't hear it on a daily basis. Let's put it this way - there are a lot of people who would LOVE to be in your shoes, so if you weren't enough they would have canned you a long time ago. There is something they like about you, Ms. Haley Smith.

leann (gorman) wood said...

don't be afraid. you are wonderful and talented.

Jenna said...

i am afraid of that stuff, too. putting myself out there creativly means letting myself be vulnerable, which is scary. this is why we need to hang out at the studio again and encourage each other :) i think you are a wonderfuly talented designer. i couldn't do what you do.

Anonymous said...

You are amazing. Don't let fear hold you back. You can only transcend if you fail occasionally. If you believe in what you do, because it comes from your heart, and because it is something you want to / need to create, then it will resonate with your audience. You will never please everyone. But, you are great, so you will get kudos for what you do.

Create because you enjoy it, and because you want to. This is the key. Everyone else will fall in line.

My name's Haley said...

Thanks for the encouragement. It means everything.